What is wrong with me?

Hey Hey Hey (: Huurm. Korang sihat tak? or HOWWA YOU? heheh. Hancur English aku. Okay lah, HOW ARE YOU? what? fine? Good (: im glad that you're good and in pink of health. Tak nak tnye Effa ker? Well, Im fine too. Huhu! not exactly. Actually, bnyk benda yg Effa tngh fikir. 1st pasal subjek tambahan dekat sekolah. Nak amek prinsip akaun or geografi? Effa amek GEOGRAFI. Hey jgn engt budak 8A's mesti amek PA okay. Effa dengan Fadhlin ( mmber yg also got 8A's ) amek geo. STEADY jer babe. Heheh! My ambition na jadi Doktor a.k.a Dr. Effa  ( pakar fisioterapi ) Maybe one day , insyALLAH* Okay pasal tu dah settle. 2nd , dah tak same kelas dgn MAWARDAH ( budak kecik ) HUHU! AIDA && SHIMA satu kelas. Dyorg amek PA. sedih betul. Takper lah Effa , you need to SACRIFICE a lil bit. wut?! SACRIFICE? again? Haa. semua benda dlm hidup ney kena sacrifice. Cukup lah dgn semua pengorbanan yg aku dah buat selama ney. not only in study. but also in friendships. Okay lah. story pasal studies ney mmg boo-ring! HAHAH! so stop talking bout it. Sekarang na cerita pasal friendships. Friends a.k.a KENGKAWAN. Huurm. Almost 16 years aku hidup dkt bumi yg nyata ney. So, dah various type of friends yg aku dapat. Nak dipendekkan cerita , aku ny seorang yang setia dlm persahabatan. ( yeke? HAHA! yer la. ) aku tak suka kwn mkn kwn. SEKALI AKU BENCI , BENCI SELAMANYA! wooho! Ad some of my friends yg selalu buat aku kecik hati. Tapi xper , mcm yg ak ckp tdy. Kena ad pengorbanan. Bila susah carii aku , bila senang tak engt lngsung. Grr! Ya Allah , sedih betul aku. Tapi aku senyum jer. Sebab kalau menangis pun tak guna untuk kawan yg macam dia betul tak? Aku ad ramai kawan. Even though aku ad ramai kawan , but i LOVE each of them very much. Tak semua kawan aku yg perangai mcm tu. Ad lah sorang dua! Kalau nk cerita , Pergh! mencurahII air mata aku nnty. HAHA! so xper la. Kalau aku ungkit balik semua benda yg aku dah buat untuk dyorg depan dyorg mesti dyorg menangis punyaa or at least pun tunduk kepala ( diam jer ) . Dyorg tak perasan ker? Dyorg tak dpt beza ke yg mana REAL yg mana FAKE? Duhh! Tapii tu dulu lah , korg boleh buat aku mcm tu. But now , HARAPAN jer lah kalau nak buat ak mcm tu lagii. Please lah , aku tak tahu mana silap aku sampai kawan yg aku rasa kawan buat aku mcm ney. Aku nak sngt dpt kwn yg mmg boleh dipercayai. Yg ada dgn aku setiap kali susah atau senang. 

all good things must end,
as life is forever changing,
as I stand here, with emotions running deep,
I have nothing else to say
I have no words to comfort you
I hope everything changes but you;

as I sit here, pen and paper in hand,
wondering about all that happened,
together, forever we will stay,
because you know in your heart
that I will love you always;

Korang tau tak aku sayang korg sangatII (: I love you more than I love myself.